hi everyone
thought i'd get some opinion on my current situation..
i've been going out with a boy for 5 months, he's turning 18 in july, and i am turning 16 in septmember. we're both virgins. we've never done anything besides make out, or really talked about sex or anything although he makes jokes and things about it, maybe a subtle way to let me know he wants to do it(?) anyway.. i know around 5 months is when it starts getting serious, especially when the big 6 months hits, i mean it's half a year and all. if i ever wanted to lose my virginity, i'd want it to be someone i'd been with for that long anyway, but i'm just not ready. and he's almost 18, almost finished school, soon he'll be off studying and everything... we'll just be in different worlds. i just don't know when i'll be ready, and i don't want to dissapoint him.
i haven't told him i love him yet or anything because i hardly think 5 months is love.. he tells me he loves me though, and he really is a genuine type of guy, but i know he'll be expecting it, especially since i turn the legal age soon..
then this all got me thinking about whether i really wanted to continue going out with him. i know how horrible that sounds but, i sort of don't get that feeling anymore when i'm around him, i feel like i've lost interest. and, as i said before, 2 years isn't that much difference but sometimes, when you think about it.. it really is. i don't want to hurt him though and i know he'll absolutely get crushed if i break up with him.
i really don't know what i should do... help would be appreciated!