This might be a little long so bear with me.

I remember as a little girl, just laying in bed wishing I was dead because I hated my mother so much.
I do that to this day. In fact, just today I was crying hysterically and wishing I would just fall over and die.

My mother seems to put her boyfriend ahead of me in her priority list.
For example: A while ago, I asked her if we could go out to dinner because I was craving fast food, and she was like "No, I don't have the money tonight."
Then her boyfriend chimed in, "Wait! You just asked me a while ago if I wanted to go to dinner tonight and I said 'no!'"
Another example: One morning my mother was making waffles, but she only made three. One for her, one for her boyfriend, and one for me. I asked if I may have another and she stated "No! I didn't make enough batter for another one." So I was thought, "Ok, whatever, i'll just eat something else."
Soon, my mother and I were sitting on the couch eating, and her boyfriend was in the next room on the computer. She yelled to him, "Sweetie! Do you want another waffle?"
Needless to say, I about burst into tears. I mean, how could she put her boyfriend of 3 years before her daughter of much more?

Also, a few months ago I was due for an evaluation for medicine. Trust me, those appointments are not easy to get! But, she decides at the last minute, if my dad doesn't pay the $15 copay then i'm not going, regardless that I have been diagnosed with severe depression with a very minor case of OCD. (It's hard to explain, really. The OCD comes in because 1) Everything has to be perfect or i'm not happy. 2) My mind wont let stuff go, it replays it over and over and over until I start sobbing.)
But anyway, she cancelled the appointment because she didn't want to pay for it. Don't you think my health would be more important than $15?

Also, today we got in a fight over my cellphone and she kept telling me to "shutup" and that she "didn't care what I had to say".
This is what made me burst into tears.

She has been doing this kind of stuff ever since I can remember. So is ok for me to feel like I do? Or is this just my depression taking over?

God shut the fuck up, you are such a self-centered bitch it's annoying, which is half of your problem. Sure, one of the priorities as a parent is to be sure of your happiness, but there is a difference between supply and supplicate. Get the fuck over yourself, most of this shit is petty. And while I can say the last issue is petty on her part, you're probably enough of a pest to begin with, which is why she doesn't give a fuck in the first place. You have ruined my day, I hope you aren't American.

You are getting depressed over truly petty things. I'm sure waffles are serious business in your house. Talk to somebody about your problems if you are truly feeling bad.

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Huh, and my psych says I have depression. *shakes head*

Okay, well this kinda stuff would get me a tad pissed off, but I'd let it go. If I was having a crappy day, I'd probably go off on somebody. But this....this ain't nothin' to be cryin' over. You think YOUR life sucks? Try reading a book called A Child Called 'It'. Then you might get over this crap and realize you're better off than some people.

Yeah. You sound really spoiled to begin with. The world isn't a perfect place, so stop bitching about it!

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Might be a waste of time to give her advice, but she COULD start sucking up to the boyfriend in the hopes that he helps her out.

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Or she could throw her body at the boyfriend, thus forcing sexual relations. In the end it would cause the mom to dump him... *hint hint*

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That's sad to read.

Well, I played with the thought of having a mother placing someone else before me, and just the thought of it makes me sad.

And yeah, it is ok to feel like that.

But if I were your moms boyfriend, I would feel bad for you, you know, I don't think he want's to see you sad, and I don't think he want's to be in the spotlight all the time if it hurts you.


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Sounds like she needs a kick in the bush, but the issues aren't really that gargantuan for you to go emotional wreck over.

Dewd! Someone needs to make an image; "Waffles. Serious business."

I'm no expert, but I think that was the purpose of her making this topic. :P Sorry, I had to take a crack at that one.

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Dude, no. Don't joke about fucking waffles, they rule. Waffles! Tasty waffles! With lots of syrup!

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"My views on humanity? It is a disease, something that cannot be taught through a gentle push. No... We cannot be saved, our greed, our passion and our lust for knowledge has destroyed that which we have held dear. Humanity is below this world, my friend."

http://www.arg.com/hangout/7810-gene...-not-fail.html
For those who see flaws in our earth, discuss how and what you would change here.
http://www.arg.com/group.php?groupid=70
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlULgi92zK8