Every night I realise that I was born to suffer. I then realise that I wish I could stop myself from being born, just to ensure I don't suffer through til death, and then I realise later that as long as i'm here, I might aswell kick everyone elses asses and delude myself.

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"My views on humanity? It is a disease, something that cannot be taught through a gentle push. No... We cannot be saved, our greed, our passion and our lust for knowledge has destroyed that which we have held dear. Humanity is below this world, my friend."

http://www.arg.com/hangout/7810-gene...-not-fail.html
For those who see flaws in our earth, discuss how and what you would change here.
http://www.arg.com/group.php?groupid=70
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlULgi92zK8

Passion is essential.
Too many people are simply living, not enough are alive.
I connect more with people that have artistic traits,
people that make anything that breathes with convincition.

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When you look at life at its core, it is a horrible thing. A good view is one thing we develop over time, but it always seems to create irreversible personality defects in the ones who are hit HARD by the fact that their view is a deluded dream.

To that extent, everyone is artistic, except the permanently morbid.

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"My views on humanity? It is a disease, something that cannot be taught through a gentle push. No... We cannot be saved, our greed, our passion and our lust for knowledge has destroyed that which we have held dear. Humanity is below this world, my friend."

http://www.arg.com/hangout/7810-gene...-not-fail.html
For those who see flaws in our earth, discuss how and what you would change here.
http://www.arg.com/group.php?groupid=70
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlULgi92zK8

I know what you mean,
I try to feel sorry for myself but then I realize if I took away everything I've had to deal with right now, I wouldn't be the same person.

I don't think I'd change this shit of a family, just because I like the fact of knowing I'm better than each and every one of them.

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I would have rather been born and raised by drifters. The family I have now... within five minutes, any of my friends had hated them. For YEARS they've pestered me and its really starting to pay off for them. I'm almost at the point that whenever I hear their voices, it aggrevates me. The angrier I get, the more pain i'm in when I calm down, eventually to the point where I can't move once i'd laid myself down.

Drifter family FTW.

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"My views on humanity? It is a disease, something that cannot be taught through a gentle push. No... We cannot be saved, our greed, our passion and our lust for knowledge has destroyed that which we have held dear. Humanity is below this world, my friend."

http://www.arg.com/hangout/7810-gene...-not-fail.html
For those who see flaws in our earth, discuss how and what you would change here.
http://www.arg.com/group.php?groupid=70
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlULgi92zK8

To a small extent.
Most are shallow,
or too shallow to show it, what they believe, or how they really feel.
I don't mean that obnoxious feed for attention,
but people that show a bit more intellectuality than a worm.

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Valley girls?

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"My views on humanity? It is a disease, something that cannot be taught through a gentle push. No... We cannot be saved, our greed, our passion and our lust for knowledge has destroyed that which we have held dear. Humanity is below this world, my friend."

http://www.arg.com/hangout/7810-gene...-not-fail.html
For those who see flaws in our earth, discuss how and what you would change here.
http://www.arg.com/group.php?groupid=70
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlULgi92zK8

I understand.
For years I'd scream, and yell.
Now they call me 'mute.'
I refuse to speak without reason.
I save my breath for everyone else,
the ones that listen.

It seems that the only people that don't listen to me,
are the people that I live with everyday.

Maybe my 'parents' are intimidated,
or naive because they know nothing about me,
and never will.

I don't care for them,
or their thinking.

I just hope someday when they look in the mirror they gag.

'Like, oh my godddd!'

Yeah,
you know what's worse?

There's guys that are just as bad.

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I know, its horrible.

But even as a child starting grade school, you could see the effects my family had on me, I was imitating them, becoming bossy and violent, I'd even pick fights with twenty year olds... leading to myself being tied by the shoe laces to a tree...

Later, I became more aggressive, louder and somewhat warped. I was blasted from a horribly sheltered life into a generic world and it evened me out, now my only words are ones that leave others to wonder if they were threatened in some way.

Most of the time, I vent during my training, lifting weights and running, practicing my styles or I simply take it all out in an extremely violent game. For a while, I started drawing and working with 3D art, which didn't work quite well. How about you?

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"My views on humanity? It is a disease, something that cannot be taught through a gentle push. No... We cannot be saved, our greed, our passion and our lust for knowledge has destroyed that which we have held dear. Humanity is below this world, my friend."

http://www.arg.com/hangout/7810-gene...-not-fail.html
For those who see flaws in our earth, discuss how and what you would change here.
http://www.arg.com/group.php?groupid=70
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlULgi92zK8

Honestly?
I've lived in more places than I could count.
We ran around all over Washington.
Basements, hotels, random people's houses.
My mother couldn't keep anything steady.

By the age of like 6, I came to realize her boyfriends had a greater interest for me, than her.

Since I was 11 I've lived with my dad.
Things were okay, until he met her.
She stole him. I lost my dad years ago, and I'm still searching for him.

So, I'm stuck with a monster of a step mom, and a father I don't know;
surrounded by little kids that I'd probably kill if i got the chance.

I'm basically on lockdown 24/7.
Can't leave, can't eat, can't breathe without being attacked.

And when my father's anger problems collide with mine,
things are thrown and broken.

All in all,
I wouldn't change a thing, anything.
I feel like I've been beaten into a man.
It feels good.

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