Recently I learned that apologies don't always work. I have no idea how to exactly fix this mess I started, but I still have to try. So, I've apologized, you've said you believe me when I said that I'm sorry. But... Why should you believe me? How could you believe anything I say anymore? I'm trying to contradict myself, I'm just stating facts. I'm not going to give up until I have the chance of apologizing face to face/person to person to you. I know no doubt you'll read this Mirc, but i have a strong doubt you will reply. But I could be wrong. I've apologized in text I've apologized over the phone, to me though, that isn't enough. I know that I was wrong with how I lied to you and you were hurt and as was your father. I know I've lost any chance that I ever had with you. I guess its time to just learn how to accept that fact. But I want to at least be worthy of your friendship. I bet you don't like me spilling this over the internet, but isn't that how it all started? I want people to know my mistake. I deserve to be judged. I have to do something though because I can't get over you. I'm tired of crying over it. I want to know that you truly do forgive me.While I was lying to you I figured I could control my feelings. I was afraid to be myself, I didn't know how to begin to show how much I liked you. After living with my aunt for those two years, I didn't know how to love or show affection, but I have to take responsibility for my actions. So I couldn't keep my feelings at bay... I wound up falling for you anyways. Now I know that it isn't easy to control feelings. And lying makes it worse.

Now all I I can do is tell you the truth...
I'm sorry and i love you. No matter what happens I'll never stop thinking about you. I want to at least be your friend when its all said and done. After all I know that you'll never want to be more than friends now.

This is all I know to say...
I'm sorry.
I love you.

And that lie about in time wounds will heal, that person is a liar...

One more thing... Today marks a year from the first comment I left you.

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And thats suppose to mean what? Great pictures... Too bad this isn't a picture thread.

Yes it is.

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Wonderful picture... I'm being serious, I need to resolve this... And while I'm at it I'll offer my apologies to my High archy (spelling) I'm sorry for being a blattent fool and pulling out pointless challenges that were pure idioticy.

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I forgive you, you dumb jezebel

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*cries* My goodness.....*wipes tears* I'm still laughin' at Njord's pic.

Screw everybody else. That apology was so good, I'M going to forgive you. And that's all that matters anyway. ME.

Thanks Shocky... It wasn't meant for you but, thanks anyways. I'm trying to win a guy back over...... which I think I've already lost.