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O.k this all comes to form a problem, if I wind up going out with my friend he'll expect me to tell him this.....

My life was a very different one.

When I was five my parents divorced and I lived with my mom. Until I was eleven. It was around Christmas and my mom was starting to get sick, it was two days before Christmas and my brother and I was playing in our backyard in the snow. We got tired so we went inside and my mom was there. She said,"Just in case I'm not here on Christmas I want you two to open these presents right now. So we opened them and in them was a necklace one for my brother and one for me. The were crosses...... Christmas passed and she was still with us but she seemed to be getting sick(er) to say.... In January she finally went to the hospital, I spent most of my days there with her that month, it was her birthday.. she didn't even know how old she was because she was delirious, I had just turned eleven a couple days after Christmas, my mom that she was eleven too. That made me so sad a couple days after her birthday on the eleventh of February she passed away.

I felt really bad as I stood there, I had just walked in the room three minutes before she died.... I wanted to hold her hand I thought if I did she might not leave, but I couldn't muster up the courage to do so.... I couldn't do what my mom had wanted! She told me an my brother to be with her that she didn't want to be alone when she died. We kept that part but we didn't hold her hands as we said we would. That thought haunted me for days... Also the part of it that I believed it was my fault she had died because, before I was born while I was still in her womb the doctors and my aunt (her sister) convinced my mom to get an abortion. Since if I was born there was a major risk that my mom would die.. And also that I would.


I used to get really angry at my mom when I was about eight.... I would run off and hide behind her recliner a sulk and think horrible thoughts... Like that I hated her and wished she would die.... But I always come back to the same conclusion that if my mom had never had me my brothers and my sister and niece and nephews would still have her... That I wouldn't have been such a loss that God should have took me instead of my mom...

I just dunno If I can tell my friend all that... should I? That is only part of my story.... but I will let you be the judge for now.... I'm so upset and have no idea of anything right now!

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You say you believe I'm sorry, need I believe since I know I brought it upon myself to ruin it all? Maybe you do believe me at least I hope thats true. Why should you believe me, after all I lied to you?
The truth is --><-- I'm sorry & I love you. Need I say more?

You dunno if you should tell your friend, but you tell complete strangers?

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Well you should tell him if your ever to be with him, without secrets right. The hardest thing to do is to always have those things that bother you the most lurk in the darkness to take you at a time and then if you start to cry in front of him or something, what if he thinks he did something wrong?

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Never say one thing and do another an animal will never understand.

Honestly it depends how your friend feels about these kind of things, I mean sharing extremely emotional things can help or hurt a relationship. He could either take it as a way to bond between you two even more or just something that seems to dramatic and move away from you. I don't know him so I wouldn't know how he would react to it.

Thats true....

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Never say one thing and do another an animal will never understand.

blah blah you big fuck baby My parents fought when I was a child My mother drank and smoked before i was born You see me bitching about it? No fuck you.

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Life is to short to wake up in the morning with r e g r e t s, so LOVE the ones who treat you right and forget the ones that dont & believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance take it.
If it changes your life, let it

Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Thats very harsh... and I don't think she was b******* either

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Never say one thing and do another an animal will never understand.

Dude, shut the fuck up. If you aren't here to help, then just leave. Now I've lost people near and dear to my heart, but to lose my own mother is unfathomable to me. But when the dust settles, you mess with Meg, you mess with me. Get it? Got it? Good.


Well, you might as well tell your friend. You told us. And I told my momma, my daddy, and my stuffed Dalmation.

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Peace is a lie, there is only passion.
Through passion, I gain strength.
Through strength, I gain power.
Through power, I gain victory.
Through victory, my chains are broken.
The Force shall set me free.

Who do I mess with if I mess with you? :P

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we never think your parents will pass away when you were young. Parents do everything for us in order to be good children. We didn't understand why they did that to us. However, you will know we gotta treasure them when they are gonna pass away or you lose them. don't be sad. it's your past. just work hard on your life I think your mother wants you to be successful. your mom does love you and she still keeps you even though she would die.