I killed him with my fist.

i think what u could do is tell ur boyfriend that u have this problem and ask him if its ok or something i dunno but i think that would work thats honest and he would most likely try to help cause that what a relation ships for right?

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lifes got its ups and down

Ok...look im the same way...u have to work through it...and try. its not going to be easy....u have to let ur current bf know that ur trying and that u want to be with him. Let him know wats going on inside...other wise....he will be really confused and think its him.....idk if this helps...but its wat i did?

That's the scars relationships leave.

Not much you can do but give it time. Or try once again to trust.