wow, weird. I've felt that kinda thing before. I'm not an emotional guy (like almost to a fault). i rarely get noticeably excited for anything positive or externally sad or mad at things. At most it's usually just... apprehensive, like I'm waiting for something I know will happen. I used to have this really strange fear of getting really angry at anyone, like I'd flip and hospitalize them (which is ridiculous, cuz i'm not an incredibly powerful guy). still do somewhere in the back of my mind.

but I usually just find something to take my mind off of it. Either hanging with friends or working one of two jobs. I mean between that, I'm just always doing something. Don't really have time to notice that I don't very much. Also, I categorize my music by what feeling I associate it with so at least it comes through that way.